From Prideful to Pampered
Are you trying to be strong and prove that you’ve got it all together?
Is there a fear of looking weak hindering you from reaching your full potential?
You are not alone and there is hope for you!
When I was a teenager, I used to pride myself in the fact that I was a low maintenance woman. A family that I knew during childhood used to struggle to make ends meet but the wife would go get her nails done regularly. I remember my parents saying “She doesn’t need to get her nails done when they are in debt.” Even though this may have been true, it produced a wrong way of thinking in my heart. I became prideful and compared myself to this woman. I would say within myself “I don’t need all of that fluffy stuff. She is such a needy woman to have to get her nails done all the time.” I would think this way about women who were presentable and looked professional, “Look at all the makeup on that lady’s face. She must be struggling to measure up.” I never said these things out loud, I actually thought I was discerning and that the Holy Spirit was showing me things about people, but in reality, I was actually judging them and comparing them to myself because I had a low self-worth.
“Finding fault is not a work of the Holy Spirit. It is not a spiritual gift. It is neither inspired by God nor led by God. Finding fault is the product of fear, low self-worth, and anger. It is a vain attempt to end pain by controlling and forcing others to change.”
- How to Stop the Pain by Dr. James B. Richards
Fast forward 15 years and I start experiencing pain in my body, specifically on the left side of my neck and my right leg. I booked a Sozo and found out some things about myself. I had taken on false responsibility and I was believing the lie that I am only lovable when I am low maintenance. My need to be strong was preventing me from receiving love from the people that wanted to pour into my life. It was also preventing me from receiving love from God Himself. My low self-worth was hindering the flow of abundance in my life!
During my Sozo, I discovered that my physical body was crying out to me for love and attention and I had pushed all of that aside and said “I don’t need all of that fluff because I’m low maintenance.” That was really pride masquerading itself as independence. The truth that the Holy Spirit revealed to me is that His gifts are free and that He loves me. The Holy Spirit showed me that Father God is still leaving the ninety-nine for the one and that one is me.
God freed me from 15 years of wrong thinking and the stored trauma in my body is now healing because of what God did in one Sozo session. God showed me that He wants me to be taken good care of and that receiving His riches in glory by Christ Jesus is not too much.
Does receiving from others feel too embarrassing?
There is freedom waiting for you in place of that embarrassment. Give your embarrassment to Jesus and ask Him what He is giving you in exchange.
Vulnerable conversations with people that you trust is a catalyst for destroying the work of pride. Pride goes against intimacy because pride is self-sufficient and looks down its nose at others and at the love that others offer.
'Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.'
Are you able to trust trustworthy people? Maybe you’re thinking, “I dont have anyone in my life that I can trust.”
There is peace available to you! Bringing things into the light brings healing and freedom!
Is your heart resisting the love of others? Do you find yourself comparing yourself to others and have a low self-worth? Come in for a Sozo! Our team is ready and equipped to love you into freedom!
